Yesterday was a Full Moon.
At 7pm I went for a walk on the beach with a little journal in my pocket. Couldn’t see the moon so after a few minutes, I sat down and started writing.
The first thing that flowed from me was “to be alive and experience through my senses, a life of deep joy and fulfillment”
To me, this means
– deep connections
– fun and laughter
– vitality and aliveness of mind and body
– looking at the world with fresh eyes everyday
– opening my heart to fully experience the moment
– feeling my body vibrate with energy and joy
– being so connected with source that I radiate love and inspiration
– being surrounded by people and things that take me to higher levels of consciousness
City lights shimmer on the water, traffic whizzes by, water gurgles and the vast expanse of sky beckons me as if to say – you are me and I am you. Born of the same creator are we.
A gentle force was moving through me to lighten, simplify and erase anything that didn’t vibrate at the level I was.
From piles of notes and papers at home that were stressing me out rather than helping me, to the pictures and flash cards that covered my wall – they were either thrown away or boxed. It felt natural to light a few candles and chant to the sound of OM for a few minutes.
The energy around me was incredible. The sense of real peace and calm that’s been missing, pervasive.
Ok, it’s not that I don’t like visual and written representations of my goals and intents, I do (I am a HUGE lists person!).
It dawned on me though, that having so many diverse goals in plain view were pulling me apart in many different directions, adding to my overwhelm and paralyzing me.
From notes to “remember to be in the moment” and “you choose what you feel” I held them all in my hands and felt what was needed. The answer came in the form of 2 sentences that said it all for me.
“I am gentle and patient with myself for as long as it takes. I listen to and ask my body what it needs”
These few words, at this moment, are all that I need to remind me of my purpose and priorities.
I’d been doing it skewed all along.
Who needs 50 post-its reminding you of all the things you already KNOW you want? All that will flow to you as a result of being aligned. And alignment (in my case), comes from my 2 core values of connection and belonging.
The body is a temple. Every spiritual practice and religion says so. So to be in tune with your body, is to be in tune with all of humanity.
For the first time this fall, I bounced out of bed with a big smile on my face and an inexplicable joyful exclaim.
By 8:30 am, I was at the beach again.
Watching people walk by, breathing in the fresh air and smiling at the joggers and loud seagulls. After a few minutes of taking it all in, I thought I was done and could go to the gym.
But something made me stay.
And a few minutes later it happened. From deep within me bubbled forth this overflowing gratitude. For life, for nature, for beauty, for grace. And I started giving thanks.
Thank you God, thank you Universe for this amazing city I live in, for all the beautiful places I have lived in so far, for my life, my health, for making it all turn out right no matter what happens.
I thought about my body and how I treated it, the lack of respect I show it when I don’t eat well, refuse to exercise it or nourish it. I thought about how hard it’s worked for me over the years and I feel myself welling up.
When was the last time you thanked every part of you? For me, it was the first time today. I sat on that rock and I THANKED.
- My legs for being strong enough to carry me around, my ankles for giving me balance and letting me know when I was out of it (through sprains and injuries). My knees for moving forward in spite of fear.
- My feet for holding up the weight of my body and always being ready to walk even when I am not. My back for being the core of my strength. My stomach, for holding my innermost feelings and emotions.
- My arms and hands and fingers for communicating my thoughts and desires to the world by way of the written word.
- My neck for the wonderful job it does in holding my head high. My head and eyes for still looking out towards the horizon, looking at the ships floating there and enjoying their stillness.
- My heart for loving and losing. For breaking and healing. My smile for making it all worthwhile.
I got misty eyed as I sang out one of my favourite old songs from childhood “Sun, come on out and dry up the tears of the girl in my garden, sitting with me, oh little girl, listening to my summer song”. Englebert, I think.
And finally, I was done. I was complete. At the same time, I am just beginning.
I don’t know if I’ve explained it well enough – it’s surreal. It’s been a long time coming. And I see now, how the last few weeks of trying to find my way were leading up to this moment, as if by magic.
I’m finally home in, at long last I realise nothing is more important than connecting with the divine inner source and being one with this world, this body, this mind and this soul. I don’t know how I’ll hold onto this when life gets in the way but somehow, I know I’ll be just fine.
When was the last time you felt this way? How do you connect with source?
I sum it up thus: Tia Singh is happy. content. solid. connected. one with herself. nature. relaxed. alive. vibrant. vital (and vitality). smiling. a new way. the horizon. sun. moon. self love. health. happiness.